here i am again, trying to be freaking disciplined and do this crap. 

i don’t want to write about the freaking ass wipe day i had.  i don’t want to write about the fact that the man i f*ck lives with someone else and has no respect for me (why would he).   i don’t want to write about the fact that my therapist is worried about me and i now have to go once a week.  i don’t want to write about what a failure i feel like.  or how all i would like to do is add another spider to my arm.  no, i really don’t want to do that.  how embarrasing having the marks i have. 

i wasn’t even going to tell my therapist about f*ckface (my neighbor’s boyfriend i’m f*cking) – but he upset me so much today, i was crying and had no choice.  coincidence ?  think not.

wish i could go into more.  will someday.  don’t feel like it now – i’m emotionally drained.

i will try and download another song – wish me luck !

have a good one !

Dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooog

i REALLY enjoy it !  it’s all homemade crafts.  i think i’ll join later tonite or tomorrow !

not only do i dig the whole web design thing, but i really love to do crafts.  i love it because my mind goes 100 miles per hour with ideas.  i love being creative – it gives me a sense of accomplishment and pride when i’m finished with a project. 

if i can dream – i’d like to sit at home a couple of days a week and just make stuff, then sell it and make enough where about 1/2 of my bills are taken care of and i can go into an office of sorts only part time !  i’ve spent 25 years with the public – I AM DONE !  but that is for another blog.

Wooooooooooooooooooo !

nite ! 

no problem.  except for manybe 1…

i was encouraged to be disciplined in my blogging so to keep learning the process by just doing it.  especially, because i would really like to continue working with websites, as a future journey.

here’s the dilema after all that rambling….

i truly do not know what to write about.  well, maybe the truth is more that i need to get over my dang self and just type because i have a mind full of useless crap, i need to dump somewhere. 

we’ll see.  dream big, start slow. 

i’ll try to think of something interesting to write about and get back to it.

okay, i have to agree that you need to follow your heart blah, blah – - but come on you classless @$$ – why do it on national television. 

that’s MY whole point !

they will be announcing the new ‘bachelorette’ this evening – i won’t watch that either, till maybe the last episode.

where’s all the sitcoms ?  we need to laugh more !  i will have to come up with an idea for one – ha ha !

homework assignment #2 completed

‘the bachelor’ finale was tonite and he picked melissa over molly (i haven’t watched one episode, but you’ll notice i pick up quick – ha ha) .  So after the show is the renunion show – he’s BREAKING up with melissa (i forgot to mention he proposed to her) and telling molly he is in love with HER !  WTFrosty

freaking reality tv.  i love it – don’t get me wrong.  it’s like a train wreck, i can’t quit watching, but like anything, parts of it is just pathetic. 

the bachelor was boo hoo’ing with the host he felt so bad – - yep – - so bad he broke up with her on national television for the other woman backstage. 

i have to admit – melissa acted pretty classy about the whole thing, considering.  oh – okay, she’s crying in the limo. 

okay, so molly is like “WOOOOOOOOOOOO ME”  what ever.

there’s a part 2 tomorrow nite.  WHY is there a part 2 ?  part 1 ended with the new love birds being loving.  sigh.  now, i’m going to have to watch it tomorrow nite, to find out WHY there’s a part 2.  it better not interfere with ‘american idol’ – i will NOT be happy.

final thought:finalt thought:i truly believe there’s a fine line between good tv and nobody’s dang business.

homework assignment #1 completed !